R-10 On, Leaving Places

So, I recently resigned from an organization I had been a part of for two years, and it stirred up a lot of new emotions, I hadn’t felt for a while.

As I said, I had been a part of it for more than two years now, so I’d gotten to a position, which permitted me to “command“, so to speak. It gave me a place to ask people for work and assign it. I edited their pieces. And no one edited mine. And the moment I sent my resignation letter, I felt myself go all the way down, again.

It wasn’t a bad feeling, that: Oh I’m not in charge anymore. It was more of like,: Hey I’ve never felt this constant pressure before. To do good, to do better, to Raise Higher. What is this I feel? Is this adrenaline? Pumping me with Energy? This excitement to start anew and go up on a higher ladder this time.
The feeling of Challenge.

Since I had been on the top of the ladder for so long, I had forgotten what it felt like at the bottom. And the moment I hit the ground it all came back again. The anxiety of waiting for approval from your superior, the discontent to edit a part out from a write-up, because the senior demands it. The ‘fear’ of offending someone. (since I tend to be a little outspoken)

And it all felt good. I realised I was smiling. And it hit me, that life demands change. Obviously, we’ve all read this before, but I understood what it meant. I wasn’t growing there anymore. It had given me all it could. I understood the meaning of

If you’re the smartest person in the room, you’re in the wrong room.

I’m too young to just stick to the one thing. When I can do much better someplace else. We’re supposed to do more. Rise higher. Yearn to Learn. That’s key. Yes, the comfort and safety and security we feel at a place, we’ve worked hard to get up at. A place we’ve made our own is always priceless.

The warmth is endearing. But, we need the cold to grow too.

Leaving is also important. And when you do get to a better place you’ll know it was all worth it. So, challenge yourselves, if at all. Competition is a great force. Every step. The rush feels good. Feels Alive. The fight to reach higher wherever you are feels better.

Until you’re at the top again.